Illusion........Or.........Reality??

Recapturing my senses and with shivering hands I started searching my phone in the vicinity of my bed. Once located and few incorrect swipes later, I managed unlocking it!

The one thing I very strongly wished not to be true turned out to be very much true!

It was sharp 4:38 am! I was numb.

With each passing second & my heart sinking, I walked towards the door of my room. Struggling with the lock for a minute ,I finally managed opening the door. I turned to the room on the left and found mom & dad in deep sleep. I tried waking up mom but my first try was unheard! Before I could make another try, a voice from inside said let me handle this myself!!!

In the predicament that I was, I couldn’t think of anything at that moment!! I felt my heart pacing at the highest rate! Could it possible be true?? I had been in reality still trying to put the pieces of my dream together. All I could remember was, I read something from a piece of paper and she burst into tears!!!

I knew it was a dream but was there something imbibed in it for me? Was my dream a verbatim of reality, of what was yet to come? Or was it a verbatim of the thoughts of my unconscious mind! And isn't it said that early morning dreams often come true?

I went back to sleep trying to figure out the answers and with the wish that mom was beside me. There is something enigmatic about nights and something even more enigmatic about dreams!!!

The morning welcomed me with sunlight which penetrated the curtains into my room!! I woke up still with the thought of that dream but with a fair attempt trying to feign its existence! Very soon I was ready and left home for my dance class. Reaching there, I felt a strange negativity in the air! I could sense something went wrong!

As she entered the room, her eyes spoke before she could. Pain and grief reflected from her eyes and before I could ask she started to tell it all.

I was amused. I suddenly could see all my questions answered. My dream had spoken to me. It was trying to tell me that she was in pain. It was not an illusion. They were not the thoughts of my subconscious mind. She was a person who was just an acquaintance. I never thought about her. So how did I get that dreams. It ain’t the first time I get these dreams once in while and its sometimes about people who I hardly know and their thoughts wandering my mind is far from reality!!

I fail to understand this mysterious, uncanny world of dreams!!! There is no rule that applies here. There is no theory that is proved correct here! There are only experiences that speak for each one of us!!!!

Welcome the dreams into your world.....you never know which one might just come true!!!

"Man, alone, has the power to transform his thoughts into physical reality; man, alone, can dream and make his dreams come true." Napoleon Hill

Think Again....

A few days back i was conversing with a friend in my usual chirpy mood, when he pointed that I had still not grown up. I was immature.

People who know me would have never come up with such a statement. I was a bit baffled, not on his comment but on the fact that for a few people Maturity and Seriousness are synonyms. I wondered, how having a serious outlook in life defined a mature person? So to sound like a mature person one needs to be a little more serious about things or rather pretend that in front of others!

I think, Maturity is seen through the decisions you take in life.Its a by product of getting old. Life teaches you a lesson with each passing day. The decisions you take in such times make you a tough person.You evolve as a person and that makes you mature. Its a journey, an endless one. So you never stop getting mature. You cant expect a 12 year old to act like a 22 year old in the same way you cant expect a 22 year old to behave or have maturity of a 30 year old!! It comes with time and it looks good like that.

I take LIFE as it comes. I don't let the future hover over my present. As a 22 year old ,I enjoy every moment.

So is this that makes me look immature?

or Does the fact that I have a gregarious personality makes me immature?

or my fun loving attitude serves the purpose?

Whatever it may be , it doesn't matter!

Beyond all these silly things is a girl who was strong enough to win a few battles all by herself , who was courageous enough to take some decisions which just turned her life upside down. A girl, who has materialized those thoughts that people just dreamt of doing some day, who has started thinking about her country and people of her country even before the so called mature's could give it a thought!

If being serious about life, if planning life and being vocal about it, if following the conventional & the traditional path, if leaving the small pleasures of life to accomplish the big dreams, personifies the mature person in you..................................

                              I would rather be called an Immature!!!

“To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.”- Henri Bergson

Especially for girls!!! ;)

ALDO 50% off, Westside 60% off, AND 30% off , Pantaloons 50% off....... Come JAN & JULY and my love for shoes, clothes, accesories multiplies by leaps and bounds and reaches a point beyond which calculations are obfuscating!!! :)

A Shopping Addict by birth, a Saving Phobic after I began working and  Sale-a-Crazy since mall started dominating Mumbai!! Given the limited SALE period for all big brands that too clashing with one another I often face crisis picking the shops to cover during this time and the one's to drop.

Its risky to leave even a single shop unvisited cause you never know which coal mines have diamonds hidden in them!!!

 Sometimes I wonder how jejune life would have been without Malls, Off Season Sale, Debit cards, Gift Vouchers, Shopping Cards!!

Some people find it difficult to understand the delectation in spending money!! Shopping is nothing but waste of time and resources for them. But for me its a good exercise. It keeps your mind healthy, wealthy and wise!! ;) When you are depressed just try this once, pick your car keys, make sure you have your debit card or enough cash, drive to the nearest mall. Once there, try the best clothes and accessories and look into the mirror if you feel nice and confident looking at yourself buy it!!! At the end you would be too busy picking good stuff in the best possible deal  and for time being you would forget your worries and troubles!! The icing on the cake would be that you would have managed to pick some really cool stuff that you could wear and feel confident and happy!! :)

When you look beautiful, you feel confident and tend to have a positive frame of mind! I spend on myself cause its very important to come out of the rat race, catch a breath and to live your life. What if you save lots but you are not alive to spend that money or enjoy a hassle free old age or what if you aren't that fit enough to do the things you planned to!! You can do cost cutting and savings now but by the time you get the returns you would lament over the young years of life!!!

I don't recommend saving none and spending all you have! I say save but let yourself free to spend and indulge in the stuff you wouldn't be able to do in years that are still to come!! Keep no regrets with your past! Don't get grinded in the responsibilities so early!!

At the end, remembering SRK and his golden words,
Jeena hai toh iss pal mein jiyo kyunki kya pata KAL HO NA HO!!!